Lent Blog Day 30

Lent Blog day 30

Family! Over the last few days family have been very important to me and have been all that I am thinking of. Over the past few days so many people have lost love ones and it could have been me. This is why I am so grateful for every second that I get to spend with my friends and family. Many people have said that I should get a job and support my family. But for me not working at the moment I am supporting them. I will never get this time back with my children. I will work when they are in full time education; after all I will probable have to work until I am 70 now. But we will see.

Now sleep.

Thinking Time for Change Lent Blog Day 28 Family

Lent Blog Day 28

Today that is all about family and I am spending it with my sister. Boys are asleep up stairs and had a nice day! Also got some more children's books to help my children with their reading.

Lent Blog 27

Lent blog day 27

Today and the week end went well my son brought me back teasslies when he went on a walk around Ensor’s pool with his dad a local beauty spot in Nuneaton.

http://jncc.defra.gov.uk/ProtectedSites/SACselection/sac.asp?EUcode=UK0012646

http://wikimapia.org/15008482/Ensor-s-Pool

I stayed home and cleaned!

Had a nice bath this morning, the house is to cold to bath a night.

Went to Bedworth of once it was worth the trip in a long time. Not much as changed since I worked there and visited last. I will go again in the future and photo some more local attractions and graves for my blogs and Redbubble account.

https://www.nuneatonandbedworth.gov.uk/site/

https://www.redbubble.com/people/KABFA

Now it is off to bed.

Lent Blog 25

Lent Bog Day 25

With mother day almost upon us I think of those who have lost love ones and have held them in their hearts as a mother or a mother figure. I lost think of Mary and how soon she would be a mother losing her son. Some thing that one should ever endure the loss of a child.

But these last few days have been filled with happiness and sadness for those I love and know around me. With Winter looking like to is clearly over. The clocks go forward to show and remind us that life never stops and that things happen for a reason. Although the loss of one you love is a pain that you never forget but due to live with in time.

Today was another day where the sun was shining to remind everyone of spring and new life.

I also attended the local market, shops in Nuneaton with my family and went to a charity event in Camphill for a local boy with leukaemia. I then visited my family and came home.

https://www.facebook.com/events/397152757330017/

https://www.facebook.com/marta.kr1

I got my mother day present locally and my sister birthday present two from the following.

https://www.facebook.com/sophieshandc/

https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Body-Shop/107906582571671?pnref=lhc&rf=108627415835379

Now I want to say “Happy Mothers Day!”

Lent Blog Day 23

Lent Blog Day 23.

Over the last few days I have aimed to sleep more and be on line less. So I have also spent that time looking for a new job and spending time with the boys.

I have also today spent time with my friends, posted some more items on line to sell and more films that I have made on You Tube. I am so happy that thinks may be looking up and I can hopefully move forward now.

http://www.ebay.co.uk/usr/slomkat2013

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrNnpHjtBtQdF63oVEWhkAQ

Lent Blog Day Eighteen

Day Eighteen

Today and yesterday have been very positive. So as the whole week! I have been very focused on the future and how I can support my family. I started working on the garden again and planting more plants that I am hoping to sell in the future.

I have started some new art projects and selling my unwanted clothes and other items on Ebay. I also have some items that I am going to be dropping off at a local charity store this week and cash of clothes.

I have started collecting pine cones for my new project that I aim to get finish by autumn 2017. I have stated to rethink my finances to try and save some money each week so that I have some money for a “rainy day.”

I also heard from an old friend and I was so happy to hear from them. It hard difficult for me to think about my past and to talk to the people from it at times due to the pain that it still carries. With the DWP trying to push me back into work I know that I still am not ready to that that due to not feeling safe to do so.

I find it so hard to talk to people that I use to know and to even walk down certain streets in my home town due to the painful memories that they carry. It is so hard that I know that I need to move on, but how do I do this when I still can not forget my past and would like to keep in contact with people without the pain that it carries?

I will have to work on this.

http://www.ebay.co.uk/usr/slomkat2013

Lent Blog Day Fourteen

Lent Blog Day Fourteen.

Form today I believe that things are only going to get better. I have had sure a great day! Yes it started off to a rusty start but both children are asleep in bed now and I get every thing done today that I would have liked to do so far. So I am happy.

I still need to get an egg timer! That is a must!

So now it is down to businesses I have to get sorted!

Get ready for tomorrow!

OMG!

I just hope that tomorrow goes as planed!

Lent Blog Day Sixteen

Day Sixteen,

I did not write about yesterday I was so wiped out after attending the NEC and the Educational Show. This week is so busy with shows; so I attend the one I thought would benefit my future. I have got a lot of information and will use it and give the information out too.

Today a “normal” Friday with two small children to take care of; tomorrow Callan will dance again.

http://www.thenec.co.uk/whats-on/

http://www.thenec.co.uk/whats-on/education-show/

ADDING LINKS THAT ARE USEFULL TO YOU SOCAIL MEDIA CONTACTS AND SUBSCRIBE VIA EMAIL ARE USEFUL.

JUST DO NOT OVER LOAD YOUR SLEF AND DECLUTTED YOU IN BOX AT ONCE PER WEEK.

I WOULD ALSO RECOMENT UNSBSCRIBING TO ANY THING THAT YOU HAVE NOT USED FOR A VIEW MONTHS.

Lent blog Thirteen

Lent Blog Day Thirteen

The day that for many if classed as “bad luck”, today I would have to agree. The bus service to day was a nightmare with service being cut again. Also the NHS is really in trouble when it takes up to a month to seen a family planning doctor. Apart from this it was a good day and the boys are well. I have started to post items on eBay to sell. I will continue to do so to remove clutter from my life. What I no longer need I will burn, recycle and give to charity or some one who needs it. This will be on a first come first served bases with anything that I give away.

https://youtu.be/KnKQFyKtEFo

IF YOU ARE LOOKING AT GIVEING AWAY TO AND CHARITY THEIR ARE A NUMBER OF WAYS THAT YOU CAN DO THIS.

I WOULD RECOMENT HAVING A CLEAR OUR ABOUT EVERY 3 MONTHS IF YPU CAN AND LOOKING TO WAHT YOU WOULD LIKE TO KEEP, THROW, UPCYLE OR DONATE.

WHEN YOU IMPORT THIS INTO YOUR MONTHLY ROUTINE, YOU WILL FIND THAT YOU WILL START YOU CHANGE YOU SPENDING HABITS AND MAY EVEN SAVE MONEY.

Burning unwanted paper work over the hoildays.

BURNING ALL OF YOUR WASTE IS IMPORTANT TO ME.

NOT ONLY IS IT VERY THERAPUTIC IT HELPS TO GET RID OF ANY PAPER WORK THAT CAN CONTANE INFORMATION THAT COULD  BEUSED IN ID THEIFT OR FRAUD.

I KNOW THAT TO DAY ALOT OF YOUR PERAONSL INFROMATION IS ONINE SO YOU REALLY NEED TO BEALBE TO PROTACT YOURSLEF IN EVERY WAY POSIBLE.

IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO CHAGE IT THEN SO NOT POST IT.

GOING PAPERLESS CAN HAVE ITS PROS AND CONS.

HAVING PAPER WORK STILL IN IMPORT ESPICALLY FOR BUSSINESS AND KEEPING IN FORMATION THAT SOME TIMES CAN "CONVENANLTY" DISAPEAR ELCTRONICALLY WITH A PRESS OF A BUTTON.

SO THINK ABUT WHAT PAPER WORK YOU NEED AND DO NOT NEED.  I WOULD RECOMENT SORING IT OUT ADN PUTTING IT INTO A FOLDED.

ALSO TO KEEP SOME IMPOERTANTINFORMATION FOR ABOUT 3-6 MONTHS MAX.  SOME PAPER WORK MAY NEED TO BE STORED FOR 5 YEAR LIKE BUSSINESS COUNTS.

BUT ANY THING ELSE I AIM TO GIVE A 3-6 MONTH SHELF LIFE.

I MAY THEN KEEP AND ELECTRONIC COPY ON FILE.

TO FINF OUT AOUT HOW TO BURN AND WHAT YOU CAN BURN IN YOUR BACK GARDEN LOOK ON YOU LOCAL COUNCIL WEB SITE OR GOVE.UK

https://www.gov.uk/garden-bonfires-rules

Leng Blog Twelve

Lent Blog Day Twelve

Yes I know that I missed nine and ten on my blog. Ten was a Sunday and nine I was up late Friday night and then up early Saturday morning so that my son could go dancing and spend the day with his family.

I have always tried to have one day per week where technology dose not rule my life and my children learn that people can live without technology even if it is only for 24 hours a week.

This week I have been trying to get more organised with Callan’s dance show coming up soon at the Bedworth Civic Hall this year with Chatter Dance Academy in Nuneaton.

Over the last few days I have been spending my time still sorting out the things that I no longer need in my life and trying to focus on mine and my children's future. Apart from that nothing much as really changed and I do not believe this is going to change until Bryndly starts nursery and then I will start work again.

Until then I am still working on my blogs and art work though Red Bubble.

https://www.redbubble.com/people/kabfa?asc=u

Lent Blog Day Nine

Lent Blog Day Nine.

I am sorry no lent blog eight, I just crashed last night due to having a great and tiring day with my family! Today was a busy day too. I looked at relocating for a job that I would really like to do, BUT when I looked at the cost of living and if I would be better off the answer was sadly no. I was so happy of thought of going back to work and trying to give my children a fresh start and a new lease of life.

But after going on the following website

http://www.entitledto.co.uk/benefits-calculator/startcalc.aspx?e2dwp=y

and working out how much financially I would be better off after taking out travel and child care the answer was £0.00. So what I am looking at doing now is looking after the boys and looking for work when they are both in full time education unless something comes along in the mean time that I just can not say no to. The main reason for this is because for my children to be in full time care whilst I work I would be looking at paying about £80.00 per day.

Lent Blog Day Seven "International Women's Day!"

Lent Blog Day Seven

https://youtu.be/drGx7JkFSp4

“Happy International Women's Day!” I think that it is great that this day comes up during Lent it give people time to think about women and women's rights! I know some men might be thinking ”What about our rights?”

But to day is about celebrating equality and diversity and people being able to have a voice! This is still not the case in many countries with the inability of “Free Speech.” Today people that are mentioned and celebrated are women throughout history that have helped to make a difference in one way or another.

But people tent to forget to celebrate the birth of every women and how much of a struggle life can be for the female sex. For me, one of the biggest struggles in life is motherhood. Even if you are not a biological parent to the child you raise being a mother figue is any way shape or form is to me the hardest job for a women.

Do not get me wrong being a father fugue is too, however the bound between mother and child usually last forever especially in the animal world; most males tend to farther the off spring and “that’s all she wrote.”

One mother that people tend to look to or think about especially at this time of year is Mary; the mother of Jesus and what she did for her son. Form the moment he opened his eyes and closed them.

The hardest thing for any parent is the loss of a child; “parents should not really out live their children.” So to day I am happy to celebrate international Women’s Day and remember every Mother figure in the world enough Mother’s Day is not until later in the month.

https://youtu.be/66zUY8UZn4M


https://www.telegraph.co.uk/women/life/international-womens-day-2020-theme-rights-history-facts-why-celebrate/

Eurythmics - Sisters Are Doin' It for Themselves

Lent Blog Day Six

Lent Blog Day Six.

The last 24 hours have been very interesting and filled with mixed emotions from everyone involved. I am back on my meds and the boys almost sleep thought although Bryn is still under the weather and wanted me 247 to hold him.

Trying to de-clutter as been a great help and given us all more space to run around in doors; the garden is looking better now too. No more broken glass to cut our bare feet on in the summer. I am hoping to have a BBQ for my birthday that coincides with 1St July event that is taking place locally that I will be attending.

Callan had a good eating day and we even had time to night to go to the park and see nan. I have looked at not eating late and trying to be in bed by 22.00. Although last night I did fall down the stairs again due to still suffering with sleep derivation.

All my blood came back fine, which means that it must be sleep derivation that is effective me still physically, mentally and emotionally.

Lent Blog Day Five

Lent Blog Day 5

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4QzpSeDsHIw

Where did day 4 Go? Yesterday was Sunday and a day that I try to stay off line and be their for my children all day. Plus my youngest was unwell so I put his needs first. He is still unwell and I had to call in back up. It is nice when you count of those around you for support and is something that not everyone as. In today’s society people are less welcoming and neighbourly.

I mean a really neighbour and not a “curtain twitched.” Just some one that can support you in a cries and be a shoulder for you to cry on. Even with social networking this is still something that seams to be lost in translation and not on tap.

This is were at times having faith and being part of a church helps me out and makes me feel like I am not alone. It reminds me that everyone needs help for time to time. I try to use this to try and forget my problems and see how I can help other with theirs.

I always feel so guilty, ashamed and stupid when asking fro help, it is not because I am scared to or stubborn but because I feel week when I depend of the support of some else.

I am looking at working on this. Today was a good day and I played with my children and not just spent the day cleaning up the mess that they make. Bed time was still not good and had to call for help. But all tucked in bed now and I will now do the same.

Bill Withers - Lean on me (original song)

Lent Blog Day Three

Lent Blog Day Three.

I have been going though all of my magazines and I will be putting them on line to sell from £5.00 including free UK postage. I am currently gleaning any reliant information from them to keep and use in the future.

I have also started a new Art Project and been a really BITCH towards my boys who never listen to me and believe they are superman.

Started meds again and now it is time for bed.

Lent Blog Day Two

Lent Blog Day Two

Now that it is the week end I have 3 days to get my life into some sort of order again My mum as offered to take my son dancing and their dad is working so I am aiming to get sleep back to 20.00 and not 22.00 because daddy visited during half term break.

I know that eating late and it being Chocolate from my mum is not a good idea but I need a lift. I also need to find a way for getting my boys to listen to me. If this could happen I am sure my stress levels would decrease ten folds. This is something that I need to work on other wise I will be in an early grave and one I can not afford.

Today I looked at seeing how I could go back to work, Bottom line I would be looking at paying around £2,000 before I can do so in training and about 6 months volunteer work IF I looked at working for some one else. I am going to go to the Education show at the NEC in the next few weeks and I will make a decision about furthering my career in the education sector or something else.

I will also look at maybe doing some volunteer work in September when both of my boys are in nursery. For now Routine, take my medication and wait of my blood test. Eat chocolate, drink tea and sleep.

Michael Jackson - Man In The Mirror (Official Video)

Lent Blog Day One

Lent Blog Day one.

And breath! I have final got the children into bed after another stressful day, full of doctors, hospitals, blood test, broken items and lost keys. Not for getting “I want daddy and not you any more!”

So far looking to the futre and trying to stay positive whilst doing so as not gone to well. What I have found out fro today is that my health is not good and I need to do something to improve it NOW. Also the relationship between me and my children is not good either due to my ill health.

One of the main things that I have always had trouble with is stress and working under presure. To to mention being organised and remembering where things are. Over the years I have tried to think of different ways to cope and get thought the day.

But having other people to take care of, means that things do not always go to plan and my health goes out of the window. So what do I so about it?

Today was a positive step more blood tests and antibiotics. The second one is sleep. I need to try and find away to get my children to sleep though for me just like they do for their nan and dad on over night visits.

Eating, I need to stop eating late at night and lower my caffeine in take and up my fruit and vegetables.

I need to start making a list of things to do each day and do it!

That is all of now I will write again tomorrow.